I don’t know why
I lay here, and all I keep saying is “I don’t know”. Hour after hour I continually question my emotions, but the more I think about it the less I know what this feeling taking over me classifies as. I live a great and genuinely happy life so I don’t know what’s constantly bothering me. Imagine a bottomless hole that slowly obtains more and more pressure, so much that you want to implode; that’s how my chest feels. I can’t explain why I feel this way because of all the “wonderful” things I have in my life, but the feeling is there. I don’t know why; I just don’t.
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I sit here and wonder what’s the meaning of life, is everyone supposed to deal with this painful strife?
It’s like a roller coaster going up and down, maybe it’s time I up and leave this town.
But I can’t, I’m held here with the feelings of no fear.
And I don’t want to either, cause’ for once my emotions are safe and they’ve never been more clear.
I’m ready to express, and don’t get me wrong, when it comes to time this isn’t a contest.
I wouldn’t want to rush, but when I see you my face can’t help but blush.
Let me explain, it’s like there’s no risk of pain in this romantic game.
In the end though, I feel we’ve both won and I don’t worry about ruining it all. And I’m not scared to fall, because it won’t happen while I’m in your arms, Cristobal.
Yet I’ll admit, I fear a little bit.. Of what you’ll say on the day when I speak my mind even when I know you’re so kind.
I know I should wait to say this aloud, but know my tongue will cloud the way, so I just need to say..
I love you.
And I say this because I trust you, I see you, I don’t want anyone but you.
The feeling I have can’t be described which is why I can no longer be deprived of letting my fear prevent my heart from speaking, please don’t let this drive us apart or let it be the breaking.
Never have I said those words with such meaning before, but that’s why I’m so scared you’ll leave me and think that I’m crazy.
Put that all to the side and take a risk, is what I kept saying to get me to do this.
Back to the point, I let you know what my feelings show and as nervous as I am I hope that you won’t go.
Baby, forever and always is what I’m ready to promise, and these feelings I have won’t ever dismiss.
Once more, it’s on my hatchet that this is all true.. Cristobal, I love you.
Now you’re just burning bridges you once helped build. #Myself #CombatBoots #FishNets #DeepThoughts
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This is one of the sweetest things anyone has ever said to me. This just goes to show that there are still good caring people out there. Thank you, I’m always here to converse if you’d like as well.(:
One day it’ll be my turn to be happy with that perfect someone. When that day comes, all of you almost lovers won’t ever be given the light of day.
I would draw my heart out if I could.
Indeed we are.
(via kenzielikesyourface)
- January 2012 : This year is gonna be my year.
- December 2012 : I tried.
My room is about as close to mine as I can make it. Until I have the money to move, this is what I shall hide in.
Realizations at Their Finest.
Ever get high and just sit numb while thinking about your past; think about the other periods in your life when you’ve felt just like how you do now? Imagine how our memory storage works. Whenever our body feels a certain way, it considers it a brief check point and stores it away with all the other memories we have when we’ve felt that way. I wonder.. How many check point does one recive until they stop living?
